Last week I started back to work. I came down with a cold the Friday before, so last week I was just kind of blaah. Today I finally feel back to normal. Tonight I was able to process all these changes that have happened. I am no longer with Sam all day and my life will soon be consumed with the stress of working at Anna Griffin, Inc. Tonight when I was sitting there rocking Sam to sleep, I set a goal to find a way to get to be with him more. I would much rather work hard at something I am good at and something that God meant for me to be....a mom. I love it more than anything and I really think I'm good at it. I can tell he knows how much I love him and I want to spend my days with him and not sitting behind a desk stressing about how to sell a $5 dollar product for $25.00.
When I was rocking him to sleep tonight, in the blue lights of the turtle ocean waves coloring the room, Sam at times appeared to me like a 2 year old boy. Oh my goodness it was the sweetest thing. He's so precious. Right before it was time for him to sleep, we were in our bedroom and I was talking to him. He was cooing back and really looked like he was talking to me back...it was the cutest thing I've ever seen or experienced. I asked God to please play that tape back to me in heaven. Sometimes I say, "Dad, I know you are seeing this too".
I started to write a song tonight called I Love You. Can't wait to work on it more!
God, thank you for making our dreams come true.
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