Just you and I

For 2 weeks it's just going to be me taking care of you.  Daddy has to work out of town for 3 trade shows back to back.  I dropped him off in Madison today so he could ride with Larry.  We 3 ate at a restaurant for lunch.  It's not the most fun taking you out to a restaurant.  You don't really love your car seat that we carry you in, so one of us has to eat fast (daddy), so he can hold you while I finish eating.

I just wanted to tell you tonight how much I love you.  I love that you are getting so smart and doing things and getting a cute personality.  You are very interested in me when I talk to you and you try to talk back.  This week you have really started to smile more.  It's so wonderful when you smile.  Daddy says it melts his heart.   On the ride home this afternoon, you were crying a LOT.  I knew you had a #2 in your diaper, so I pulled over in a K mart parking lot and changed your diaper.  When I stopped the car and got in the back seat with you, that was the loudest and worst cry I've heard you cry yet.  Once you realized I was holding you, you were comforted.  I wanted to cry because you were so sad.

This coming Monday you get your shots.   That will be hard to see, so I will just whisper in your ear and comfort you that way.

I just want you to know that I love you more and more every day.  I go back to work in 2 weeks.  I can take you with me, as there is a day care there.  That's really nice I get to do that.  I wish that I didn't have to go back full time, but for now that is what we have to do as a family.  I would like to be with you everyday while you are learning new things and be a part of that.  Grandmere had a good point the other day when I spoke with her that most families this day in time have 2 working parents.  That's just the way it is.  I was telling her I was kind of sad about going back to work.  I wasn't going to say anything, but I started crying when she asked when I go back.

You are such a good baby for us.  You have been sleeping in your crib for about 2 weeks at night.  During the day, I still put you in the swing as you seem to sleep the longest there for your day time naps.

I enjoy taking you for a walk around the lake, talking to you on the bed, reading to you, giving you a bath and smelling your hair (it smells like my dad's hair!)
Daddy asked me last night if I enjoy having a son, and I said,  "oh yeah!"  He said, "I thought you would."  Son, you are so precious to me.  I feel like the luckiest lady in the world to get to spend time with you and get to raise you with your daddy.

Love you!

Mommy